Genres: Contemporary, New Adult
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Eighteen is hard.
And so is Mateo Alesci.
He’s hard to read, hard to predict, hard in every way that counts. He wants things from me.
Dirty things, nasty things, forbidden things.
And I have to give in.
His attention is completely inappropriate, but I can’t say no. The way he looks at me… the way he watches me through my bedroom window… the way he drags me deeper and deeper into his completely forbidden fantasy world just… turns me on.
He knows it turns me on.
He holds all the power. He holds all the cards.
He holds my entire future in his hands.
And I have to give in.
Because Mr. Alesci is my teacher.
And I need everything he’s offering.
This may be a bit silly of me, but one of the reasons I grabbed this book was because I wanted to read a true story about two young people over coming some real hard stuff to find love, and good love too. Imagine how I felt when I reached to the end and the author said this was not a true story, but a novel and gave some explanation about the events in her life which was slightly linked. So the plot was not real, the love story was not real…just the high school and a few friends that got second character roles. really? I really hate misrepresentation, but silly me for believing the adverts.
Another reason I rushed to buy this book was the blurb…I was hooked!
However I just did not like the story. I am really happy it works for other people. For a love story there was zero connection between the characters. Day two or three of meeting this supposed teacher, he grabs Shannon, kisses her and they have sex. I never even knew she wanted him on such a level! She did mention a couple time he was hot…but that was it! no lingering stares, no wondering what it would be like to kiss him, no attraction that makes you anticipate them coming together. Nothing! I was not even sure if he was the love interest because there was ZERO chemistry. When he kissed her I was like ooohhh sh*t is about to go down cause Shannon is going to hurt him for taking liberties. Imagine my surprise when she had sex with him. By the way when he just kissed her, she had a like WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON THOUGHT…but still dropped her pants. I had a huge WTF moment.
Moving on…Shannon was a crappy heroine. I started to dislike her when her drunk brother in law punched her, and she stormed out of the apartment and left him alone with his 3 months old daughter. I kept turning the pages, waiting for her to go back or show some concern that she left a helpless baby with a maniac. Nope. All she could do was whined about her life and how hard it was, and how everyone was giving her a hard time. In fact there were so many red flags with her niece I kept reading and hoping she would show some real concern for baby Olivia. Nope…it was not until the very end when she discovers her brother in law had been drugging the baby and left her in a crack house to almost died, all of a sudden Shannon is so caring and helpful. I did not believe it for a second.
Her sister OD, and she was a b**ch about it. She did not have one kind word/thought about her sister. No empathy to wonder what happened? what was she really feeling to drive her to drugs. Heck, she did not display any sorrow at all. Just a line to say her sister was fun, but then she was selfish and left her and the baby alone. yeah cause everyone that has problem and OD just did it to spite their family and there was no cry for help there. She complained about not eating, and being so hungry because her brother in law only left so much money for her to go to school. Ummm hello? She was 18…what about looking for a part time job? What if she had not met this guy who was conveniently rich guy…she would have starved to death? I get that the author wanted to show me Shannon was so tough and had a hell of a life, but no matter how hard I tried I could not connect with her. When she needed to ask hard questions she drew the covers over her head and slept. Sigh.
Then there was no romance! Just sex and some more sex. The plot felt disjointed and I was not invested in the characters. The growth I had desperately wanted to see so I could start falling in love with Shannon was glossed over.
Please note the author’s writing style was very engaging. This book was just not for me.